Friday, January 19th, 2007
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9:37 pm
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Hey live journal haven't seen you like in na minute. ive bin cheating on you with myspace so get overit! yea so my life has bin different, ive movied out off my grandmas house an into a motel for a while. i also meet a girl house gorjest an blonde of course. she born the same year score son. yea so some bad things happened but, i feel old an stronge enough to move on , but never to forget. My grandma had died my unlce and aunt, but ill live. ill right back later ight -~
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Friday, July 29th, 2005
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3:06 am - johns party
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ya well got realy fucked up at johns party it was tight until he through my fuckin ass out when i was gettin ass, but wat ever i just let his fuckin ass use my house all the time fuckin dick, wat ever still got something out of it. well now im at my friends house just chilin fuckin around on myspace but you give a girl a nough beer they'll do some crazy shit. o yeab NWA BITCHS
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Sunday, July 24th, 2005
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7:10 pm - cape cod
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ya havent wrote in a while but i just got back from cape cod an it was fuckin suck. all we did was party everyday meet girls just get flat out drunk an have a fire at the beach
but when we were in p-town there waas so many gays an fuckin crazy things, but the women were hot got some to come drink with us an have a good time they, watch us skate
then we just walk through p-town an got caught drinkin but they let us go cause they liked coors light. thank the lord for that. but out of the whole trip i'll never forget it especialy the house we had so many good times in that house everyday was good we didnt even have to leave the house to go anywhere that was like the vacation. ohh ya plus i went power sailing how many of you have done that .
current mood:  tired
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Sunday, May 8th, 2005
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11:58 am - GROWING
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when you grow up the wrong way it seems to be better, then a rich kid playing piano they seems to be madder, so they weep an cry about how they wanna be poorer when the poor weeps about waning to become richer. all my moms wants for me to grow up safe an not become something that makes me have to live
inside of a cage, so i try to stay away from the people that reales the bad inside of me an try to man tan a high school average, when all thats at high school is teachers, telling me to become something i once had thought, when all i think about is my girl when I'm there, wondering if I'm good enough to be her man. i now i get mad an i don't mean it, but the love we have is stronger then it seems an given your heart up seems to mean every thing you ever dream, but i understand other man have broken that dream which forces you to push away from me,
but as time moves on an the clock turns, we grow closer then ever an as we grow closer we become one of each other an hoping that we can give each other the heart of which is ours so that when you goto collage all ill
be thinking about is that day of march 27th.P.S" BABIE I'LL ALWAYS BE THERE" <3
current mood:  wondering
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Monday, May 2nd, 2005
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10:39 pm - that echo in my mind
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today must have bin one of the best days of my life today i went to school just could wait to see her... then she had gone to tac still couldnt get her out of my head but then fifth period saw her then 6 period saw her then 7 period saw her then last but not least i saw her again...shes just an echo in my head god an i love it.....then she came to my house an we had maid love not once but twice an ill never forget that her god susie youare that girl babie an i love you<3
current mood:  crazy
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Sunday, April 17th, 2005
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6:03 pm - tight nights
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well bin haven some good nights just chilin with my friends havent really chile with them in a wile, but had a couple of partys getten drunk an high has bin prety tight cause have done that in a wile ethier. an like 4 days ago went down to the city with jay,amanda and my bro an just walked around had good times but im pist cause if i new susie could have got out of work i could have brought her with me and had 10 times more fun then i had, but it was prety cool in the city... bought a bong there tooo but everyhings bin goin prety good but if i had my girl by my side right now it would be perfect... babie cant ait till you get home from florida i miss you<3
current mood:  I NeDd MoNEy
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Tuesday, March 29th, 2005
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9:42 pm
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shits bin tight, today i clean off my dirt bike an took pictures so that i can put it in the penny saver to sell it for some money an probaly do something better tords that ash if i make it.
ya my love life is also gettin prety awsome cause now im goin out with susie i just bin feelin better about goin to school so that i can see her. ya well that raise me up. ya so me christina , jess, jackie and her boyfriend mike just played b-ball today and then went to cortlant to go an get some wendeys then jackie went to mikes to drop her off an she went in side then w just stole her car an took it around the block blasting rap it was tight. well peace yalllmean.
current mood: mooooooo
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Tuesday, March 8th, 2005
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4:56 pm
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well ive bin doin ok but i feel like i have now one to think about cause i had broke up with my girl friend, but for many things, but it just sucks to not have someone to goto or just talk to on the phone or go out to places an just hold an kiss that someone just nowin you can walk with that person for hours an never want to go home, also just to not ever wanting to go to sleep cause u now that the day will just be over an that you may not be able to see that person for a while. ive just bin partyin an its cool but not haven someone their with you there
its just not as fun, but being drunk does help me forget until the next day. YOU ARE THEN ANTIDOTE THAT GETS ME BY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
current mood:  woundering
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Wednesday, February 16th, 2005
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10:21 pm - wishin
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i dont now what to do, she keeps runnin through my mind, i miss her, i miss being with her, i miss that kiss, i just wish for me an her to just be together an everything to just be ok, ill walk an talk with u untile the sun comes up but not touching you just makes it more intence an seeing you smile, laugh but when the day ends i wish it hadent, nowing that you might brake up with him makes me want to just brake up with her an just run to you an kiss you cause your the only one who understands me she doesnt no,no one else does but you, you just make me complete an im not just saying this. i just wish i could turn back the hands of time an show that i could have bin more, but the past is the past an the future is now just give me that one chance an ill never screw up that one chance again.
current mood:  hopeful
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Thursday, February 10th, 2005
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10:07 pm - good times
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well today went to skool watch some boring ass movie their then came home on the bus havin the fuckin greatest time cause are bus is the shit. then got home email emilie told her to run her ass over to my house shes gotta then fuckin watch eurotrip an had such an incradible time an then just left a present on her shirt "john nows what im takin bout" then she left which suck cause i thought i was goona do nothin the rest of the night until john came an we fuckin went to the high school an played basketball for like 3hrs then came home an well thats it ha.
current mood: prety tight
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Sunday, February 6th, 2005
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7:09 pm - greatness
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well good time at the mall on friday went to see a movie with a girl i met named emilie she hot well we didnt watch the whole movie cause thier was to much light so we went out side an just chilin haven a cigaret wich tight cause shes tryin to cut down on them to. its just the whole time we were runnin from the rent a cops an then just made out around the werdest places which was also tight. then we went inside the mall an cause more trouble. after went back to her house an thats where it all got fiscal.
current mood: go0od
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7:07 pm
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well good time at the mall on friday went to see a movie with a girl i met named emilie she hot well we didnt watch the whole movie cause thier was to much light so we went out side an just chilin haven a cigaret wich tight cause shes tryin to cut down on them to. its just the whole time we were runnin from the rent a cops an then just made out around the werdest places which was also tight. then we went inside the mall an cause more trouble. after went back to her house an thats where it all got fiscal.
current mood: go0od
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Thursday, January 27th, 2005
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6:05 pm - pist
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ya well went to school took my fuckin midterm then left but then my math teacher stop in the hallway an told me i got a 75 on my math midterm i was happy, but still not happy at all cause idk this person is just runnin through my mind an it just herts to not be with that person but nowin that i have no chance with that person it herts
even more but you no what that person didnt even give me a chance so fuck it what ever forget about me move on. hope your happy PAAAAAA!mabe im better off alone
current mood:  what ever
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Monday, January 24th, 2005
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5:24 pm - NOWING ONLY HERTS
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well tomorrows midterms an i have no chance of passing cause idk shit, its just like last year im just fucking up an its just to hard to do what i use to do. cause i miss my dad so much an i now we could never be a family again an thats what leds me to do bad in school. because when i look at everyone in school its just so easy for them to go an do thier homework an work to become what thier gonna be, But i can see my future its just gonna end up like my dad, but probley worse. Its just every time i get close to someone i just go an fuck it all up not rob not john but me. I just lisn to all this shit they say like i cant make it with out this girl well if i was any near close to being like you i would be so happy an be some were in my life an would not give a shit how shity my life is but all in all my bro tells me how we aren't as worse as a fucking bum on the street. well all in all i wish for the best that comes my way
'SAY HELLO TO THE BAD GUY'
current mood: anoud
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12:41 am - drink drink thats all thats good
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well had a party yesterday an today i just drank some liqor with tim an a couple of friends. It was tight but what i realized that im only happy when i drink or smoke cause that day at the party i was just mad at everyone cause some had stool my beer an then my bowl was missing an i just get pissed an punch a wall. well what i realized is that its not always good to be the nise guy cause one it gets you no were an to it just suck dick cause in the end im gonna get nothing i want cause of
being the stupid stupid fucking nise guy.
current mood:  drunk
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Monday, January 10th, 2005
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9:32 pm
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SMOKE SMOKE SMOKE THAT WEED SMOKE SMOKE SMOKE THAT WEED DRANK DRANK DRANK THAT LIQUOR POP THEM PILLS "KNOW"
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Sunday, January 9th, 2005
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9:51 pm - MICKEY D'S
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yesterday fuckin me lewis an eric were fuckin at stop an shop an discided to cause some trouble so we were braken shit an then out of no where we found a wet dollar on the ground an say what the hell lets buy some eggs. So we go to stop an shop an buy eggs an then walk all the way up to mcdonales an erics has his camra so we discided to film it. So we through the eggs at mickey d's an we run all the way to hollywood then we meet up with lewis sister with her boy friend. We look at the camra an eric the stupid dick fuckin film it all shacky so u didn't see us at all or thoughin the eggs. Know we had to go all the way back an do it again, but this time we have a get away car lewis sister JEN bf. So we go to a&p an go to gets some eggs, but the guy at a&p ask if we were the people who through the eggs at mickey d's were like fuck no0o. then we pull up to mickey d's then through the fuckin eggs an hit all the windows an exspecialey the one you order from the bounce on it. today me lewis an eric went to drop in the new skate park in westcester an got so much on film, but when we got in the car the fuckin tape was broken. THAT SUXED BALLS
current mood: tired
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Tuesday, January 4th, 2005
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8:30 pm
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well most days have bin better. Didnt go to school today cause my mo0om forgot to wake me up. school just sucks such balls its to hard to go through an everyday i do go to school i just think i waste a day of my life cause i dont have anybodie in school that gives a shit or even notices me an it just sucks to pass people an just notice
couples together, but all in all i guess i use to be a nice guy but i notice girls dont like nice guys they like complet assholes whice i think i am now cause most times im
even pist or mad it wouldnt even mater cause every bodie i do things with i screw up some how or just feels like they like someone else. What can i say i guess i suck with women not as "SMOTH AS JOHN OR ROB ', you now what i just dont go out with some one an fuck them over. i wish i was like that probley feel more happy then i do now, but then again i just dont have the heart to do it. i wish i had an answer??????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????
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current mood:  Zo0o420york???????
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Wednesday, December 29th, 2004
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5:16 pm - crazyness
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well about 2 days ago me an john an 2 girls got in to a car crash, it was prety fuckin intence but worse comes to worse every body was ok. the funny part we had weed an dutches on us so when it happend we through that shit an bounced to see if the other people were o0ok, they were but their car was fucked up. So when the police left i ran back an grabbed my
weed an went back in to johns moms car an that was a good night cause then me jackie an steph smoke that shit an felt mad good that night. an jackie was so high on the way home
that she like short stop 15 times an park in the road. know that shit was funny. yestarday i went to mikes house an blazed up an drank thats how it went down you now why cause thats CRAZYNESS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
current mood:  glasses kick azz
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Friday, December 24th, 2004
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2:02 pm - renewing life
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well i have notwrote to my journal in a long period of time because shit has bin down an now i am trying to bring it up for moral suport, its just this year which is again im not having christmas as a family
im having christmas as like a living hell an can not find the time to figure out away to make it better
but just to smoke it all to my head an drink it all because i had made a promise one of my friends that i wouldn't do hardcore drugs anymore, but im feelin the ergue to very very feeling the ergue to but as it all comes down to it every thing happens for a reason an well will find out in the long run. OH YA!!!
if theirs any girls out thier lookin for a man call me.
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